Sometimes

Sometimes, when it raining, I don't use the windshield wipers so that i can let life take itself into it's own hands. I could A. crash and die B. crash and walk away or C. get home safely because that is what is upposed to happen. I know my road way to well.
Sometimes I cry and let the tears consume me. I never wipe them and I secretly love the way they feel on my cheeks. The first tear is always my favorite.
Sometimes I hurt myself so i don't have to feel anything else.

I'm sad...lonely...and wish I wasn't so crazy. Good night:)